tragedy

"i love u so much, but i hate you so bad because i cannot have you"

home

"May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home"

hipokrit

hypocrites
take your own advice won't you?
you are a disgrace to your religion

jangan ambik hati
i am only saying what i know

"you deserve better"

we do.

creative rut

marcello

"A man who agrees to live like this is a finished man, he's nothing but a worm! I don't believe in your aggressive, sticky, maternal love! I don't want it, I have no use for it! This isn't love, it's brutalization!"

loss

slowly

i am beginning to grapple with the losses i experienced recently

"sampai menutup mata"

she'd sing it all day long
that song you dedicated to me.

i hate you




i miss you

the turn

busy

i have been busy
so busy i don't even have time for myself
but perhaps that's not a bad thing.

cause my mind has been wandering...
and wondering.

i can't even write a fucking draft.

raffles

yum.

i ate a lot recently.

f w

muji
bentos
shibuya
udons
sanaa
kengo
mu
uniqlo


yes
i am going to tokyo!


(but i will just about miss tokyo international festival! talentime might be showing! is it?)

the studio. good luck everyone

photography by david, chern, shyn, faiz

the day

the day i realized that my life is actually pretty good
is the day i stopped expecting too much of it

:)

it will come. soon. it will come sooner than i think.

shame

there are so many things i can write about right here
but

i will save you the shame

(no one reads your blog anyway)

i am free and happy :)