Friday, February 26, 2010

cloudy


it's hard. but i'm trying.
but at least the sky is pretty

Saturday, February 20, 2010

dive



"i'm an impatient person
but with you, i am patient.
i like you so much."

"but i'm not entirely hangup-free."

"i know. it scares me.
i don't know what's in your head."


Friday, February 19, 2010

love thyself


a broken heart yields determination

this has nothing to do with being a grown-up vs being a child
this has nothing to do with prophecy or foresight
you broke my fucking heart
and you can only offer me apologies

you made your 'choice'
i wasn't "there, yet."






Monday, February 15, 2010

i guess this is it

1.
the new year sets 'waa' finally in motion

2.
what explains the longing for something as transient as shadows?

3.
i can't seem to write any longer


Sunday, February 7, 2010

Thursday, February 4, 2010

silence


for a while there
words escape my thoughts

"words say too much"



Wednesday, February 3, 2010

masochism

"there is, in fact, a joy that is immanent to desire as though desire were filled by itself and its contemplations, a joy that implies no lack of impossibility and is not measured by pleasure since it is what distributes intensities of pleasures and prevents them from being suffused by anxiety, shame, and guilt."

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

sublime


"you have beautiful relationships
fraught with potential issues"
she noted

if there was a word to describe my past relationships
(or my life, in general)
it is perhaps not beautiful:
it would be sublime

cause beauty is ideal
and that is something that i have never quite attained

i just need to be alone
away from everything

"i'm just a soul whose intentions are good
oh lord
please don't let me be misunderstood"


Monday, February 1, 2010

it is called


"invasion of privacy"

please leave me alone